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Autumn Tree

2010-09-17T22:42:00.000-07:00

Autumn tree
your time is near
but when you die
you will be reborn

I want to lay on your dead trunk
and fall in love with
Autumn
and then die.

Ionnothissong

2010-08-17T23:15:00.000-07:00

Ionno where she went
I cant even ask the wind
How are your good grades darling?
I hear now your starving
I wont even try
Not a tear in your eye

a Song about a Girl living in a Wes Anderson Film

2010-08-10T18:29:00.000-07:00

She thinks she lives in New York
thinks she's got problems
thinks she owns a book store
Thinks she is an artist

She has the perfect boyfriend
who owns a private island
and has her rich old parents
to give her what she demands

She dresses like a hipster
and she's beautiful and fun
but its all an illusion of grandeur
She has seen too much Wes Anderson

Fear

2010-08-08T17:52:00.000-07:00

I am
fearful
anxious
terrified
of my past
of my future
of children
and their futures
in this world of low-lives
drugs, pedophiles, violence
I really wish
that god is real

Im writting again

2010-08-08T17:49:00.000-07:00

My demons are swallowing me whole
There is no better way to feel human again
than this

1:18 AM

2010-07-12T01:17:00.000-07:00

her sweet brown eyes
form a piece of visual art
that I can only wish
to someday look into
without turning to stone...

The Night is so Long

So many things....

2010-06-30T20:01:00.000-07:00

There are so many things
I could be doing right now,
I could be
at a movie with my friends
I could be
enjoying some fantastic music at a local show
I could be
on a rusty swing set with the girl I love
but instead
Ive been swept away with the windtunnel of loneliness
just like every other night.

City Coyote Collective Zine!

2010-06-24T14:19:00.000-07:00

I feel really honored to have some of my disgusting works of writing as apart of a good guy named Zac Hopkins' City Coyote Collective Zine. It's a really wonderful piece that has really good material from some really great people including a good friend of mine, John Connolly.

take a look!

http://www.citycoyotecollective.com/City_Coyote/ZineCover.html

You

2010-06-19T23:46:00.000-07:00

Maybe I have finally found you
but there were so many of you today
at the show
I wanted to be the one to hold every one of you
but instead, none of you

Maybe , someday
I will have
just
one
of
YOU
.

but then again look at me.

Just a Thought...

2010-06-18T23:33:00.000-07:00

I wonder if animals feel the same unreserved sadness that humans feel. Not just "Im sad because I didnt get to go for a walk" type of sadness, but more of " I fucking hate myself" type of sadness. I can understand that animals can be filled with anger(For example, snakes and such), but it's hard to think about a melancholy cat.
I have actually observed a honey bee commit suicide before. It was one of the most mind-boggling things I have ever seen. I was about 11 years young and I was at some man's house who my stepfather,Jim, knew. Jim and the gentleman were discussing some sort of business and I was standing outside waiting when I saw the bee. It was actually banging its head into a wall until it began to get tired. It stuck it's own head under the crack of a brick and began to rip it's own head off. I have no way of explaining this occurrence.
What do things like this mean? Is there an explanation? was the bee just an idiot or was something really bothering it so much that it had the need to do something like that.
Just a thought.

You can forgive the other seasons, it's summer

2010-06-17T23:29:00.000-07:00

nothing can stop now
there aren't rules
no more yelling
no more desk headbutts
no more heartbreaks
no more trouble
no more conservative oppression
no more rumors
no more bibles
no more repetition
words becoming Blah , Blah , Blah
no more
no more
but I still can't whistle
I never could

June 16th 2:18 AM

2010-06-16T19:45:00.000-07:00

I know I should be asleep
but I can't stop this thinking addiction
I can't stop thinking
about you
picturing your smile from that old photo
My mind won't stop

I know I don't even know you
but I promise I'll try

Mental Disorder

2010-06-14T14:02:00.001-07:00

Finally
They are about to put me on pills
So many years spent
With a destroyed mind
Unorganized thoughts
Drifting
Drifting
Dripping
Dripping
Bring on the Pills

“I am the warm warmth warming your cold heart.”

2010-06-14T12:43:00.000-07:00

“I am the warm warmth warming your cold heart.”
She tells me this.
I accept.
I am warm for one night.
She's gone.
for good.
Ya, Eat your heart out.

Jonas Bros

2010-06-13T15:48:00.001-07:00

If Walt Disney were alive right now
He would
Tie you boys up
And have a couple of thugs have their way with you
And then burn you alive.
And then
Go to an award ceremony
Smile on his face and all.

Oppression and a TV set

2010-06-13T15:07:00.000-07:00

Oppression and a TV set
Boredom Boredom Boredom
The Tyrants tell me not to leave my house
Boredom Boredom Boredom
Maury, Jerry Springer, Everest College,
Blah,Blah,Blah,Blah,Blah,Blah
Someday
there will be a revolution

Cat's Eyes

2010-06-13T14:54:00.000-07:00

The girl with Cat's eyes
crept into the window of my life
and stayed for a while.
she wrapped herself around me
like candy-coated barbed wired
and like all cats do,
she left while I wasn't watching
for weeks
for months
a year
leaving me alone
in a darkened house
and then she came back
meowing and clawing at my window
left broken bodied and famished
a past year of drugs, alcohol and death.
no where to turn.
I didn't let her in.

a hero

2010-06-13T01:12:00.000-07:00

You are a Giant
Yet you stand short
You are an inspiration
yet offensive
You have showed me what is real
and how the world is a dumpster full of assholes and crooks
You say life is bullshit
You will never accept a god or a religion of any kind

You are my greatest hero

A poem for the Song "I Need Love"

2010-06-13T00:33:00.000-07:00

"I Need Love",
Says
LL Cool Jay
The Song is Ok,
It's good anyway
the thought of falling in love
just a small amount
is the purest feeling
something To really surmount
I want a girl
who will be my world
but
oh well
The life of a loser
a loser for love.

Vacant girl

2010-06-11T09:45:00.000-07:00

Vacant Girl
Time spent with a vacant girl.
I tell her I love her.
I Know she is just flesh,flesh,flesh and bone.
I think I love her.
How can I resist such eternal sexiness?
forevermore.
always.
but,
The magic show has ended.
She has left the stage.
it's over.
I never loved her.
She's gone.
forevermore.
her greedy soul.
I despise her now.
Slut.
I ask myself what will her future bring?
an eternal loser
a VD infested whore
working on the harrowing narrow streets of San Fernando
smoking crack cocaine with her colleagues
A vacant, toothless,fleshy hooker.
her colorless flesh
goes drip, drip, drip,
Melting onto the pavement.
I run, run, run away.
Never again.
never so vacant.

Her name is Mystery...

2010-05-21T23:16:00.000-07:00

I see her walking on the cement. She's in her read sweater and a book in her hand. I cant help but feel ...something different. Is it love? It's something like that. I know nothing about her, I haven't even said a single word to her, but I can't help but find interest in her.
Maybe I am just a loser.
Maybe She is just another girl.
She is a mystery that I must solve.

2010-05-16T10:12:00.000-07:00

I really am afraid...

Physical Heaven

2010-05-03T18:51:00.000-07:00

I have finally received the band Mother/Father's newest E.P entitled Physical Heaven before it's actual release date. The "Catch" was that I have to give it a review. I really loved J.Robert Farmer's(Vocals/Guitar) and Matt Mccord's (bass) former musical endeavor Scatter the Ashes, So I was thrilled to hear that they had formed a new band on the horizon. Once I listened to Mother/Father I really became a true fan. Their sound compiles all of the Great formulas and ideas from some of my favorite Post-Punk/New Wave bands and adds an ambient twist to their well thought out masterpieces.

The Cover of Physical Heaven is Beautiful, Showing an angry looking child staring Towards the Camera. The Packaging is perfectly minimal which makes the band greatly mysterious.

Physical Heaven starts out with a beautifully-crafted ambient track entitled, The Hours Witch. This is one of those songs that causes you to close your eyes and daydream or reminisce, making your whole body feel as if it is on another spiritual plane. You can definitely feel the heart and soul of J. Robert Farmer's Voice as it croons throughout this work of art .

Next on the E.P is a song “Physical Heaven”, which starts of with a very 80’s synthesizer piece and some great sounding drums. This Song really sets the mood for the whole record, going from spacey verses to a powerful and intense chorus. The song;s bridge starts with an awesome sound compilation of ambient guitar riffs and drums with a poppy vocal harmony. The song ends with an eye opening wail.

Track three entitled, Cascades, is my personal favorite song on the E.P and it has actually become one of my favorite songs of all time. This bass motivated song is really moving both physically and Mentally. It is very much a dancey song with a sing out loud chorus line “Cascades around, the sirens never sound”. the song ends with a psychedelic delay piece which ends the song very atmospherically.It is a song like this that can really influence a re-birth of the Post-Punk Movement.

Fleece You is a very beautiful sounding Nostalgia song which reminds me of something that The Chameleons might have written.THe song starts of with a pretty little guitar riff and in comes J. Robert Farmer’s vocals that are certainly a Tour De Force. The guitar and drums really speak out a lot in this song.

The final track Order is my second Favorite song on the album, starting out with unexpected ambience of different little sound intricacies which then turns into some moody post-punk. The lyrics are especially moving in this song, saying that “Order is Never Found”. The bass Line that plays throughout the verse is extremely groovy in a dark way.

Overall I Rate the E.P a 4.5 / 5 , but I think this this album way more credit than just this score. I really recommend listening to this band and buying this E.P.

here are some key Mother/Father Items

-Jacquire King (credits include: Kings Of Leon, Norah Jones, Archie Bronson Outfit, and The Features) is part of the production team on this release. Jacquire also makes up half of the Mother/Father management team, which makes this a unique producer-turned-manager partnership.

-Physical Heaven is now available for pre-order through 5/17 at

ThisIsMotherFather.Com/Purchase

-The official release date for Physical Heaven is 5/18

http://www.myspace.com/thisismotherfather

Boombox

2010-04-28T23:10:00.000-07:00

Im bringing a boombox to "The Spot".
We Will breakdance...

Nike: Just Do It

2010-04-24T17:15:00.000-07:00

Caution! May Cause Excessive Performance

Poem of Love Lost #1

2010-04-22T20:37:00.000-07:00

Southern Lust

I say I love her.

Her meat and bone.

I think I love her.

Though Her soul is bare.

I never loved her.

I think I hate her.

SloOowly

2010-04-21T23:04:00.000-07:00

I just completed a new digital mixtape entitled, There are Nails in my Brain.
Listen to its sounds and words.

http://www.mediafire.com/file/mlmyjtuzizx/There are Nails In My Brain.zip

1.Maybes- Mount Kimbie
2.Want Me- Haunted graffiti
3.Memorize the City- The Organ
4.Old Pal-Nora Keyes
5.Breathe- Ivansxct
6.Love Let's Go-Cold Cave
7.Surf Rider-The Lively Ones
8.Whose Heaven is This- American Zen
9.SoCal-Whitman
10.Christine Daae- Scatter the Ashes
11.Colorstrip-Jimmy Edgar
12.Spellbound-Siouxsie & the Banshees
13.Hello Again-Former Ghosts
14.View From a Hill- The Chameleons

Rain

2010-04-21T19:22:00.001-07:00

Rain fell in Los Angeles today( Yes, I know it is cliche to talk about rain in a romantic way). The Sound of Rain brings connotations of cheesy high school romance flicks and Kelly Clarkson Songs to most of the kids my age. I personally find the rain as a sort of shelter from everything that surrounds me. I can stand out there and feel as if I'm having a deep conversation with it , as if there is no one alive on Earth but me.

It rained while I was at school and I got the idea that I am really a lonely motherfucker.Ive found that the only things I can really look forward to is my friends, movies, books, music and my family(Cliche too isn't it?). I actually love the feeling of being sick of everything, a misanthropist, a wasted youth, a total shining star of the future.

I got home and tried to listen to something that would cause my tears to flow. I wasn't particularly sad about anything , but i felt I was overdue to cry a little. The sad tunes didn't do anything for me, so I put on some Sonic Youth and. The song Silver Rocket actually made me feel in some sort of peace of mind. Thank you Sonic Youth.

As for the rain, I hope you come more often to the sunny State of California. I think you give people-especially teens- an incite to think more and to feel a little melancholy on an almost perfect day.Rainy Day, You are emotional and intellectual, come back soon.

P.S
here is an MP3. of a cheap home recording of Ryan and Devyn of Maraca Mouths "Rain Song" for your enjoyment
http://www.mediafire.com/?5zwzt05mkt2

Ionno Girl

2010-04-20T18:35:00.000-07:00

Ionno Girl

It was a secret love affair that bursted into nothingness...or was it even? I was young and ignorant.she was bright and florescent. she was a flower that grew and grew. I was a dying soul, searching for a purpose in a new world. We went to school in a three classroom building that was actually just a couple of houses built together behind a Ralph's in La Canada. I had just begun to get over my whole Reyna experience when I met her. She was from Pasadena and was far from a normal, to-cool girl. She was an Ionno Girl(Ionno is a ghetto way of shortening the phrase "I don't know".)

There was something about her persona, her wackiness, and her beauty held me in a strange state. Strangely, she was not at all someone who I looked into for a romantic relationship. At the time she was broadening my already newly rebooted mind. I didn't actually start to feel a lovely feeling for her until the end of our school term together. She was in 8th grade while I was in 7th (which kind of tells why I was so amused by her presence and why I chose not to fall for her). We talked, though I was dull and pointless. She always had an interesting topic;Her favorite band Nine inch Nails, liberal politics, her vegetarian beliefs etc. She created a feeling of passion in me for things that I probably would never have gotten into if it weren't for her.

That summer I left her life. She had new friends and acquaintances. A new life.maybe it was for the better. I Stopped thinking about her and coninued searching for meaning in myself. I ran into her a few months later in Old Town Pasadena near the Johnny Rockets fast food restaurant. she still had that passionate smile and the persona that I had grew to love. We conversed, and I found out her life was much more interesting than mine would ever be. She had friends who were smart and free thinkers just like her. I was happy for her yet I was left alone. I told her that I would really like to meet with her again sometime. that meet never happened. She has ignored my very existence since. Maybe the opportunities on her new world made things the best for her.I could only hope for the best for her.The Ionno Girl.There was something about her persona, her wackiness, and her beauty that held me in a strange and unknowing state.

Re-Birth

2010-03-21T14:01:00.000-07:00

Today, March 21st 2010, was a monumental event in my life.
I have gathered all of my Screamo/scene/hardcore albums and sold them to amoeba records.
The process was easy, gathering all of the crappy albums I no longer wanted from the shelf under my Television set and bringing them in. Although I only Profited $45 dollars from this excursion ,I now feel a sense of freedom now that i have let go of that part of my life.
I am Reborn.

new me?

2010-02-14T13:41:00.000-08:00

I havent been going on this website in a while and i apologize for that. I have been making a lot of progress with my new band Maraca Mouths. My renewed taste in music has just completed my life. all of those years following the hardcore/emo scene just made me an unsocial/ boring person.I have learned so much from the underground and independent music scenes around the world. I am apart of the Mountair Music community in Tujunga and it makes my friday nights less boring. I now have many goals in life which i wish to fulfill. thanks for reading this boring article of my life.